I quit my job!
After ten years in the automotive industry and the last four years with the same company building relationships in a lucrative sales position, I’ve quit my job. I thought about it for a long time, and decided that it was time for me to branch out on my own. It was a gradual decision. When I finally dared to admit to myself that I am a writer, and that writing is what I want to focus my time and energy on, then transitioning out of my full-time job was the next step.
At first, the thought of turning my life upside down was scary. Self-doubt has a nasty way of creeping in when it's least desired. Steven Pressfield calls it Resistance in his book; "The War of Art." He writes; "Resistance is like the Alien or the Terminator or the shark in Jaws. It cannot be reasoned with. It understands nothing but power. It is an engine of destruction, programmed from the factory with one object only; to prevent us from doing our work. Resistance is implacable, intractable, indefatigable".
As time passed and I pushed through the aliens and predators, I kept writing. It makes me happy, and the positive feedback has been a huge motivator. I reached a point where I asked; what's the worst that could happen?
I started to prepare myself mentally. I simplified and decluttered my lifestyle to maintain monthly expenses that I’m comfortable with. I picked up more writing jobs for other blogs and magazines to practice writing with a different voice and perspective and meet multiple deadlines.
When I eventually told my boss, John, that I was resigning, he was very understanding and supportive. I'm sure he was annoyed with me, but he didn't show it at all. Instead, he said he was proud of me and encouraged me to reach out to different people and magazines. John will always be my mentor. If it were not for John, I may not have been so enamored with Tesla and consequently, so obsessed with electric cars. Isn't that ironic?! Had it not been for my career in automotive, I may not have been so inclined to live a more eco-conscious lifestyle.
The universe has a funny way of teaching us lessons, if we are only willing to see them. When I first started in the car business I worked as a Financial Service Manager at Audi Downtown Toronto. That was in 2009. I met lots of new people, including Larry. He was starting his agency then, and I was getting married and living in suburbia. Back then, I wanted a job where I was on the road visiting dealers. When I changed dealerships a few years later to Lexus of Oakville, I met Deinah. She was an Event Manager staffing Private Sales at dealerships. I was going through a divorce, and she said to me; "call me when you land on your feet." I quit my job in "the box," sold the big house, took off the big ring, and traveled. Then I called Deinah. She introduced me to John and just like that I had my job on the road visiting dealers. Over the years, I would run into Larry at events, and he would always greet me with a big smile. We tried to work together a few times, but it wasn't the right fit, and he would say; "let's stay in touch and see what happens." Of course, the first place I got my first "freelance" contract work was with Larry working on one of the biggest automotive events to hit North America - The BMW M Festival. I couldn't be happier right now even though I have no idea what the future holds but I’ve learned to trust the flow.
I liked my job before, and I was making a good living. For some people, comfort and stability can mean success, and I can respect that. For me, it was static, and that scared me more than anything else. I know that I am capable of more, and I don’t want to wait for anyone to offer me more. I’m going to create it myself. Whatever that “more” may be.
I don't have it all figured out, and I'm okay with that. I can be a Writer, Event Manager, Content Creator, and Professional Jam taster all at once. The titles do not define me or my purpose and my ego will have to manage without the fancy corner office. To me, success is the freedom to be creative. That is all I want to do; CREATE.
Am I scared? Not really.
It may sound strange, but I feel like this is the natural next step, and I'm not scared at all. I realize that I may have to make some lifestyle changes along the way, and I've accepted that. I want this so bad that I will make it work.
With all that said, I'm putting it out there that I'm open to new opportunities and projects.
I'm so excited to embark on this new chapter. Thank you for following along. I appreciate the love and support soooooooo much!
Whenever an ugly doubt starts to creep in, I just remind myself - If not now, then when?